The GIlligan Scandal

I still can't get over the fact that this weekend happened the way that it did. It's absolutely insane! Had either one of us had celebrity status of some sort, we surely would've been on The Buzz, S-Files and our faces would've been plastered all over the local tabloids. (Kuy, if you're reading this..I hope you know better than to tell Mother Dearest. She will absolutely flip!)

If you've read my last post, you'll see that I promised that those people who crossed will "feel my wrath" and last Saturday, I kept my promise. I woke up Sunday morning (okay, practically Sunday afternoon) asking myself and my bunkmate if everything that happened that night really happened. Unfortunately/Fortunately, Saturday was a living nightmare indeed.

My day started out pretty normal--went to the hospital for a check-up, had my car tuned-up, finally tried a diamond peel, and had a jamming session (yes, we're regrouping and I'm sooo excited! I absolutely miss playing and I think my soon-to-be "bandmates" feel the same way). Then the bombs (yes, plural) started to drop. The "Cat" let everything out of the bag and that gave me enough proof to follow-through on the "Dog". Thursday night stake-out (which I would really raher not talk about) proved to be a fluke but this time, all the pieces fell into place. It was a game of chess and even before the game began we already knew that we were going to win. All the key people that were involved in this mess were placed exactly where they were supposed to be--even Bitch Guru was surprisingly 5 minutes away from where we were.

Jamming to "Bitch" with the house band was as good as saying "Let the games begin" Olympic-style. Suffice to say we created quite a stir along that strip even though we were at the very end, in front of a restaurant which was already closed for the rest of the night. Oh the drama of it all! I was never the "scandalosa"-type but in this case, it was a necessary evil. All the ingredients were there: screaming and shouting, revelation of informants (I'm sorry for revealing your identitites but it had to be done..and for as long as you were telling the truth then nothing they say should affect you), betrayal, lies and more vicious lies, denials, aborted fist-fights, text messages as evidence and even an attempt to break-up the drama that was unfolding by the police. It was a bit scary, standing in front of two very tall thugs (the Cat and the Dog) who have truly earned every right to be called thugs but I stood my ground because I knew that I was right and that I had my "bitches" and the other "boys from the hood" to back me up. I don't want to go into more details because that would be too long a post and while it might be an interesting read, it's one of those things that need a little discretion. But I will say this though: Both my palms sting from giving the "Dog" a piece of my mind--four times over.

That night really proved to be a revelation to me. BITCHES INC. isn't something "pa-cute" that we came up with. It stands for girlfriends who will stand by each other and stick with each other NO MATTER WHAT. These are people who will gladly go into battle with you, damn the consequences. We're no angels but you cross one, you cross us all. I guess the 'Dog" and even the "Cat" didn't realize that they messed with the wrong person, hence messed with the wrong Bitches. Sweet Bitch, you and me always. You know that. Bitch Guru, I would never have known how to fight for myself if I didn't meet you. Ours may be a love-hate relationship because we come from different poles of the universe but I love you and you know that. No questions asked. SOS, i'm there.

Once upon a time, I was indeed a doormat--willingly at some point even but times have indeed changed. I refuse to take any bullshit from anyone lying down. My karma trust fund is already overflowing from my past "investment". I've more than reached my quota.

Our night ended with more drinks at Pier1. Alcohol isn't the answer I know but it sure helped calm my frazzled nerves. I lost two pets but I gained more friends. Welcome Young Bad Bitch--you are no longer in training but read and study the manual carefully. Our two new neos-LilBitch and SlipperyBitch (amusing story-but too long to share): we've got your backs so don't worry. Be strong. We're all in this together. Just stay true, stay loyal. No one will harm you. Iver and Diwata, thank you for being real and for being true. It was your honesty (and yes, I'm sure your concern..hehe) that saved me. Thank you "boys in the hood/resbacks"... We never really hung out together before and I may forget your names sometimes but your concern and the way you stood by us till the end will never be forgotten.. (*Manokky, I know you were down with the bird flu so.. I dunno.. I'd rather not say anything cos you don't actually say anything either..noo-ni-noo-ni-noo..hehe)

I woke up today still wondering if that day really hapened the way that it did. Some of the hurt is starting to pinch but i think I've grown a lot stronger over the past year so this isn't anything I can't handle. It was a crazy weekend indeed and I never imagined I would have the "balls" to do something like this (and I pray that I never find reason to do so again). I'll just chalk this one up to experience and move on.. Things will be as they should be soon enough, I just know it. He will equalize things without me having to lift a finger--although I might just... We'll see.

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GONE
Kelly Clarkson

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it I'm gone
To find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You are wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered, never open
Nothing matters when you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending, always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking that habit today

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone