I am 32 Flavors and Then Some

My hell week is over! We finally wrapped one project yesterday (One to go!) so my stress level has finally gone down, which means my (gimmick) schedule has opened up! Yipeeeee!

I had a rather interesting weekend. To make up for the lost week, I clocked in 15 straight hours of gimmick-time followed by a visit with Boppers Mom and Child to our Flowers Mum and children and jam session after only 2 hours of sleep! I know it's getting old but it was UNBELIEVABLE! It's only been approximately 2 months since my life started again but the events that have taken place are more than enough to keep my mind whirling. I felt good knowing that I had already gotten off the emotional rollercoaster that I thought I was permanently strapped to. Little did I know that I was going to be taken for another ride--don't get me wrong, it's been laods of fun. Although, sometimes I feel like throwing up when i'm caught off-guard.

Saturday (bordering on Sunday really) was quite a "revelation". I don't think the news has sunk in just yet (hence the awkwardness) so I'm still somewhat in panic mode. WHO THE HELL WOULD'VE THUNK?!!! I know that I should be the last person who should be stressed over all of this (cos I'm the victim here and cos I wasn't doing anything at all!!!) but while some people might actually disagree, I'm not a bitch. Much as I would like this time to be "MY TIME" and to be selfish for once, I just can't bring myself to do anything. The Inner Bitch that I tapped into after losing her for quite some time apparently has clear-cut limits-- i.e. a load of sarcasm and just a little out of the ordinary fun, fun, fun. I should just go for gold and quit my job!!! (Right Jammy? Are you with me?!! hehehe)

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I feel so out of it--probably because I started it out with fighting with Mummy Dearest. Funny how this can still happen considering my current zipcode. How frustrating! Especially since I actually had a good day with her yesterday.. What am I to do?!! I hope this blows over soon..

I realized that I'm about to spend my 1st anniversary at 19Co. It still brings a sharp jab at my chest when I think about the things that happened and how they turned out but then again, I suppose there really was a greater reason or a higher purpose for everything though they were revealed months after.

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I'm a scatter-brain today. I just wanna crash..

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This is turning into a karaoke blog but it's all good..

32 Flavors
Alana Davis

Squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster, I am 32 flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision so you might want to turn your head
'Cause someday you're going to get hungry and eat all of the words that you just said
I am what I am, I am 32 flavors and then some

God help you if you are an ugly
Course too pretty is also your doom
'Cause everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room
God help you if you are a phoenix and you dare to rise up from ash
A thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy while you are just flying past
I am what i am, I am 32 flavors and then some
I'm taking my chances as they come
I am 32 flavors and then some, I'm nobody but I am someone

I'd never try to give my life meaning by demeaning you
And I would like to state for the record
I did everything that I could do
I am beyond your peripheral vision so you might want to turn your head
'Cause someday you're going to be starving and eating al the words that you just said
That you said

I am what I am, I am what I am
I am 32 flavors and then some
I'm taking my chances as they come
I am 32 flavors and then some
I'm looking for truth and there is none
32 flavors and then some
I'll never forget where I came from
32 flavors and then some
I'm nobody but I am someone
32 flavors and then some
I'm taking my chances as they come
32 flavors and then some
Looking for truth and there is none