Floating To Outer Space

I've been quite preoccupied lately. There are so many things going through my head but the bottomline remains the same-- I feel unhappy. Okay, that might be pushing it.. I'm obviously wary of angering the Almighty One by sounding like an ungrateful little b*tch. I'm maybe discontented. I have so much more than most people have but there's a sense of emptiness still. There's a void that remains unfilled and I'm not too sure how to make myself complete. I feel sad but I can't explain why or how I got to this point.

This might just be another case of the Birthday Blues with my 27th looming near. I wish I could chalk it up to just hormones but a part of me feels there's more to it than that. Nearly 3 decades on this planet and I haven't done anything that would make me feel a sense of fulfillment. I am nothing but a spec of dust occupying a miniscule corner of this lonely planet. I still don't know what it is that I want to do with my life and I don't know when I'll figure it out. It's just so frustrating..

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Gravity
John Mayer

Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know
What makes this man
With all the love
That his heart can stand
Dream of ways
To throw it all away

Oh Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
It's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity
Stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity
Has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where keep me where the light is

I'm a Princess..

Someone sent me this quote via SMS. I haven't quite figured out if this comes at a good or bad time.

"As we mature, we all have to make this transition. We all have to let go of some of our fairytale expectations for love and learn to embrace a kind of love that can survive a few hard winters. Love that has been tested is far more inspiring than love that has never known anything but bliss. Don't look for a partner with whom you have no problems with, but rather one you are good at overcoming problems with."

I think I still want and need the fairytale..