31 August, 2006

Three for Three

I hit the jackpot today! My life is back to being UNBELIEVABLY crazy... and of course, all of this happened just when I thought everything was finally falling into place. Why come???

STRIKE 1.

I got the worst news ever (at least for the year after the Hell that was my life)earlier today just right after lunch. I'm no angel, I never pretended to be one but suffice to say that when I'm angry, I can send shivers down the Devil's spine. And YES, I am absolutely livid. I'm boiling inside and my knees are shaking badly as I write this post. And I swear,I will make sure they feel my wrath.

STRIKE 2.

Aside from buses and jeepneys, tricycles and their stupid drivers are the bane of my existence. In my haste to get to where I am right now, one managed to cram itself in between the tiny space right in front of my car. Hence, I have beautiful red scratches on my bumper. JUST GREAT!!! And of course there was nothing else to do but to let him drive away. It's not as if he can pay for the damage or anything right???

STRIKE 3.

Because I was in such a "mood", I yanked my iTrip from the socket and managed to fry the entire electrical system of my car--no lamp, no radio and no I dunno what else I managed to destroy! Haaaaaayyyy!!

Lord, help me!!!

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MY HAPPY ENDING
Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

So much for my happy ending

08 August, 2006

Who Am I To You?

Haaaaaay..Yun lang!

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IF I WAS YOUR WOMAN
Alicia Keys

If i was your woman
And you were my man
You'd have no other woman
You'd be weak as a lamb.
If you had the strength.
To walk out my door.
My love would overrule my sins.
And i'd call you back for more.
If i was your woman
If i was your woman
And you were my man, yeahhh

She tears you down darling
Says you're nothing at all
But i'll pick you up darling
When she lets you fall
Cause, you're like a diamond
But she treats you like glass
Yet you begged her to love you
For me you won't ask
If i was your woman
If i was your woman

If i was your woman
Here's what i'd do
I'd never, never, no, no, stop lovin you.
Life is so crazy
And love is unkind
Because she was first darling
Will she hang on your mind?

You're part of me
But you don't even know it
I'm what you need
But i'm too afraid to show it
If i was your woman
If i was your woman

02 August, 2006

Round & Round

It's been over a year since my "rebirth" and I know for a fact that I've come to terms with all that's happened to me in the past--even if sans the tears. I know that it is only but fitting to mourn the loss of someone, especially if that person meant more than the world to you but in this case..I suppose, it just wasn't necessary. There are so many other things to cry over..

In a span of one year, I feel that I've gone full-circle. At about this same time last year, while it was liberating, I went through a rollercoaster of emotions (and weight loss and gain..haha) which I felt would never stop. I've obviously gotten on a different ride but somehow it still feels like a rollercoaster just the same.

I've met a bevvy of personalities this year. Some just came and went. Others are still around, lingering in the background and popping up when I least expect them to. Others have been a constant presence in my life--for which I am truly and eternally grateful.

1. My Girlies-Jammy and Fifi: without you and our Friday romps, my life would've shattered into tiny bits and pieces. Where have we all been?!! I miss you..

2. Boppers-there is nothing more to say other than Thank You. Tough Love/Tender Love..Only with you Mars. You and Matty are my family.

3. My Wingmen-so much has happened and so much has changed in a year and even if we rarely see each other, you have to know that you both played such an important role in my life at that point in time. Where have you gone??!! Do you even read this still?? Hahaha.. Nora, magreply ka naman-PASAWAY KA SA LAHAT. Sharon, happiness all over and sadness never-where. I'm so happy for you.

4. My Tagteam partner Bogart-I can't wait until our next adventure/misadventure. It's so much fun to "not care" (but essentially still care to an OA degree even..hehe) about the troubles that plague our parallel lives when we're together. Next victims please.

5. Doctor Mare-Bakit ba tayo nagkakaganito??! Anong bagong kaguluhan ito?!! Kakaiba na ito at ibang levels ng kaguluhan ito! Sinners raise your hands please..Hahaha :9 I'll go to Cavite or to whichever "province" you want.. If you need me, I'm there. Just as you have always been for me.

6. The Orphans-Oh the simple joys in life are made special and more meaningful because of all of you. Thank you for welcoming me with open arms and kahit meedyo OA levels na ito, thank you for always worrying about me and for checking up on me. Isaw and fishballs ulit tayo!!!
*Asong Gala/Asong Ulol--special mention ka! hehe.. Whatever it is that you feel I brought back into your life, you have to know that you did the same for me. You're so unconventional and completely out of the box and yet.. I don't know.. Hahaha :)

7. Bbitch Guru-You're crazy and sometimes I just wanna bop you on the head but I will not forget how you've been there for me too and how you're ready to fight for me at the blink of an eye always. Basta Ikaw...

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At a glance, my life looks peachy-keen but in reality, while everything seems to be falling into place, I feel as if something's still missing..I feel empty.. I can't really explain it but it's been eating me up of late. No, the fact that I am single is defintely not bothering because I am single by choice..I can't explain it. I've got a lot of things on my mind and I'm dealing with a few demons still.. but maybe I should just leave those stories to another post..

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PRETTY GOOD YEAR
Tori Amos

Tears on the sleeve of a man
Don't wanna be a boy today
Heard the eternal footman
Bought himself a bike to race
And Greg he writes letters
And burns his CDs
They say you were something in those formative years
Hold onto nothing
As fast as you can
Well still pretty good year

Maybe a bright sandy beach
Is going to bring you back
May not so now you're off
You're gonna see America
Well let me tell you something about America
Pretty good year
Some things are melting now
Well what's it gonna take
Till my baby's alright

And Greg he writes letters with his birthday pen
Sometimes he's aware that they're drawing him in
Lucy was pretty
Your best friend agreed
Still pretty good year