Geddemmit! Somebody Shoot Me!

It's gonna be another long week, (I'm at the office as we speak..sigh!), but at least I have the semi-long weekend to look forward to. We're gonna hit the road and party hearty! :)

It was an "interesting" weekend (that actually kicked off last Thursday). Spent most of it bopping with my girls (and yes, my 'walang kwentang' Wingmen and friends too..hehehe.. Just kidding! Alabshuuu! :*)

Random details; (thanks for the idea Car, I'm just too lazy right now..p

-Pier1, First Circle, My Hump, (Eeeeeewww... hehe :p)
-In Vino's first gimmick
-Mares and Hanehs
-Fifi and Mookie at Phi
-Maribeth Toengi dance moves with Gi and Jojo
-Rewind.. LL... Hmmmm.. :9
-Dancing with my girls Fifi and Jammy
-French/ Italian harassment (Where in the world were my Wingmen?!!!)
-Taxi man scare
-Passed out on a wrench
-What Room Number?!!! (WTF was I thinking??)
-Mallrat: walking, walking and more walking..
-Oysters overload at Oyster Boy
-Punk pixes with massive sunglasses
-Capitan! :)
-Roadtrip "planning session"
-Vintage ride
-TWISTER FRIES!!! Happiness all over!!
-Behrouz..Pro-Erap crowd at Metrowalk
-Same hoes.. :D

It's a Hard-Knock Life

Yes, this is another post peppered with my most random of thoughts.. My head is floating..

I can't believe that it's only the middle of the week!!! Can't it be Friday already??!!

The week was off to a very strenuous start, what with a very loooong shoot that started with an 8am calltime. We actually finished at around 3am. I can't divulge what the shoot was for just yet but it should be known to all by next week.. :)

Thanks to my friends Carcar and Nora for being so game and gung-ho (and Gar narin for visiting!). I know it wasn't exactly super comfy at the studio but at the very least I hope you guys had fun. It was my best shoot so far.. albeit the stress and the amount of work I had to do (I need a good backrub and NO, Nora! No more blind masahista moves from you!), which leads me to thinking that I should get friends as extras more often. Any other takers?? :)

Pictures to follow when it's "legal" to post them! :)

I got quite a scare on my way back after bringing Nora home. I finally experienced first-hand how it feels like to be too tired to drive. I fell asleep at the wheel for split-second and found my car careening towards a post. That sobered me up bigtime! I had to stop at the nearby gas station to gas both me and my car up. I should've gotten that sugar rush before hitting the road. Note to self (and to other drivers as well): Always keep your car loaded with quick fixes (chocolate, candy, cigarettes --okay, maybe not the latter! Car, I can picture you shaking your finger at me! Hehehe--etc.)

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I was able to get a full-8 hour rest for the first time in months yesterday (after the shoot) but oddly, I think it slowed me down more. I was up until late last night cos' I just couldn't sleep. I still maintain that I operate best with only 3-4 hours of sleep. I was trained hard and good over the last rwo years.. Hahaha :p

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I watched Dubai with my Wingmen (who I will lovingly refer to as my Crying Ladies from now on, hehehe) last Sunday. It was relatively okay. I'm glad that it focused on something other than romance although I wish the story had more depth and was a lot more cohesive. Again, I must say that I wish it did although I never expected it to. Once a film student, always a film student. Sometimes I wish I could just shut off that function which my UP professors painstakingly instilled in my head.

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I was able to spend some time with my Chicas at Greenbelt yesterday (Yes, I opted to ditch work instead.. Sorry I missed you Nuggy and how I wish you were there with us Fifipooh). It's been awhile since we got to hang out like that. Life seemed so simple and worry-free yesterday (Timezone, Cafe Breton crepes, shopping..). How I wish it could always be like that! We have so many plans for the future..Things we want to get involved in like summer camp, styling jobs, etc. It should be fun working with friends and owning your own time.. (triple sigh!!!)

This is in memory of our Scins Scons Scans Adventure (which we should resurrect soon).. Luv ya Chicas!

Suntok sa Buwan
Session Road

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko’y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka’y suntok sa buwan

‘Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga’y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko ‘to gusto
Pero ‘wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika’y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

‘Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
‘Di habang buhay ika’y aantayin

Ito’y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko’y ‘di nabibitin

Is the Doctor In???

After a very long and tiring run, my body has finally to give up. What I've been dreading for months now is finally here--I AM SICK! (No more sermons please Nora and Sharon..I'm WAWAAA!) :(

I'm not the type who gets sick too often but when I do, it gets pretty bad for me. At present, I have a giant glass of water and a shiny shimmery orange box of Kleenex beside me. Even after passing out in front of my computer thanks to the medicines I'm taking, I feel funky still. I feel so out of it..I want to go home and I'm soooo looking forward to the drive home! Yipeeeee! (Yes, sarcasm is my second language too..) I'm a whiny-bratinella cos I'm sick..Just bear with me..I'm hoping this doesn't last too long (especially with the weekend coming up!) :(

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I am so not in the mood for anything that has to do with "weddings" or anything "couple-y" and I probably wouldn't be caught dead in any of those situations except my Kuya Cousin is getting married on Saturday and the whole family's quite excited--him being the eldest cousin and this being the first in our family (maternal side). Plus everyone absolutely loves Jen! She's cool and she's genuinely nice. The thing about our family is that they all always seem to have an opinion on the people we bring in. (translation: girlfriends/boyfriends). It can't be helped of course except some of the comments can be really funny while others tend to really bite and are bordeline catty. Trespassers and new takers be aware and beware! (Welcome Cousin Chinkie!) I guess that's one of the things I'm glad I won't have to deal with..at least not for a long time.

Congratulations Cousins! We'll make Saturday the most memorable day of your lives! :)

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Congratulations to Ape J (no, not as in part of the monkey-family but as in "A-pe" meaning Uncle) I'm sure Raquel Jeanine is such a cutie!

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Random thoughts...Random thoughts...Random thoughts..So many random thoughts drifting in and out of my head.. It must be the drugs! Hahahaha...I'm starting to write again by the way. I'm not too sure that's a good thing because only very strong waves of emotion propel me to write...I'm not too keen on figuring this one out just yet..

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I was finally able to recap with Jammy and Fifi last Tuesday! It's really important to have quality girlfriend time (and quality boyfriend time for boys). I have no idea what I was thinking for the past two years. When push comes to shove, on our wedding day, we can always change the groom but never the entourage! Girlfriends (and Wingmen..Hmmmm..???) are forever! :)

Whenever we get together for our marathon sessions (powered with good food and alcohol of course), a wide range of
topics always seem to tumble out. The funniest of late would have to be gauging our mean streaks.

Conclusion:
Fifi is a Mean Girl--cos' she can be really scary when she's mad and it's just funny because everyone would have to assume that she's the nicest one cos she looks like the typical Catholic school-girl/ Pre-school teacher. Maybe it's the eye-rolling thing with the rapid-fire comments.. Hahaha

Jammy is the Bitch--although she blames it on hormones..Hahaha :) She kills puppy dogs and has them for breakfast (and she does this on a daily basis! Wawaaa PuppyDog!..Not that he's complaining!) I'm not even going to go into detail!

As for ME, while I can be very sarcastic and while I am often perceived as the bitch, I'm actually the nice one. In fact, no one believes me when I'm mad (or sad and depressed for that matter..) because I never seem to be. Jammy says I just sit quiet in one corner and cry when I'm mad. True..How pathetic is that?!!! And here I thought I was able to get my Inner Bitch back..Tsk tsk tsk...

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I WANT TO GO HOME!!!

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Here's another chillax fave of mine.. I just wanted to share.. :)

Beneath the Surface
Incognito

Here I sit and watch the crowds go by
Papa da papa papa yeah
But there's only one face I can see
If only they would understand
Papa da papa papa yeah
I'd open the door and let him in

How long can I hide, what I'm feeling inside
My love is a river, that's got to make its way into sea
This feeling can't hide, Lord knows I've tried
Beneath the surface
Beneath the surface

I try, though I know I'm hanging on a string
Papa da papa papa yeah
You're the only one thing on my mind
Keeps floating to a distant shore
Papa da papa papa yeah
As I go on denying myself

Oh, keeps turning round in my mind
Oh, round and round in my mind

Here I sit and watch the crowds go by
Papa da papa papa yeah
But there's only one face I can see

And Then There was Rest...

After a week-long celebration, my birthday is finally over. Wheeeeew! I am soooo drained but happy! (Yes, happiness all over. sadness no more!) :9

Last weekend's party was a blast and I'm glad that everyone seemed to enjoy themselves (what with really yummy food c/o Tito Robert's and my Mummy's kitchens and free-flowing Johnny, SMB/Strong Ice, red red wine, mike's, and God knows what else we were serving that night) What should've been a little get-together, considering the fact that Caffeigne is a relatively small restaurant, turned into a Par-tey! UNBELIEVABLE! It was overwhelming for me really.

My Week's Highlights:
* Roofdeck Jam Night. We are IN VINO! and we really do live up to it.. (Thanks to our test-audience Melrose, Sher, Nora and Sharon)
* Birthday Jam Night - Boppers, you make one hell of a slammer! Thanks for celebrating my day with me :)
* Heaven and Eggs breakfast with Jammy--Fifi, you should've been there! It's so SATC but we really should do this once a month!
* In Vino debut @ Caffeigne! It's official! We're coming out into the world! I'm excited..
* Thanks to all the jammers: Gino and Papoo, Tinted Minds (sadly minus Sher!), my cuzins from the hood, Nate Doggy, Kuya's friends, Old School-Princess and Carl, and W2i of course. Thanks for rocking the party out! I have the most talented friends in the world! Bibboness is the best! Hehehe :)
* Denim and White! The pictures are just so pretty to look at..Except meron talagang mga pasaway! Plus the "speed-dating" stickers proved to be very effective for some..hehehe
* Mi familia: The coolest parents in the world, my Nigga' Brotha', cousin-bros, Uncle Tito, Tita V and Tito A, Kuya Cousins and their significant others--THANK YOU!!! I know that you just wanna see me happy.. I think that it's obvious that I am now..You know it!
* My Support Group: Jammy, Fifi, Boppers, Duffers, Nora, Sharon, Apes, Car, Krissy, Ninnuh, Jaime, Brother-Bear, G-girl, Abu, Nuggy, M, Chinese Mafia plus and minus their significant others and friends..I am ALIVE and strong because of all of you. With you people as back-up, I think the joolios out there should be very afraid..hahaha :)
* I actually made it through the end of the party upright! No, I didn't pass out but if I said or did anything that could very well be used to blackmail me in the future, I just have this to say-- "It Wasn't Me! Alcohol's the Devil!!"

I'm sending out hugs and kisses to the universe because of the one million and one things that happened last week. How I wish it was easy to recap all of them. Thank God for my prepaid karma! Life is Beautiful indeed and I have the pictures to prove it! Check out my daily zeitgeist at the side to view the rest of the party pixes :)

Hey Shorty!

This is it! I'm 25 today...Now what...???!!! Damn...

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I don't even have random thoughts to share today! Is this how the "quarter-life crisis" hits people?!! HELP!!!


You Learn
Alanis Morisette

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone, yeah
I recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah

Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn, you love you learn
You cry you learn, you lose you learn
You bleed you learn, you scream you learn

I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free

Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually, anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You grieve you learn, you choke you learn
You laugh you learn, you choose you learn
You pray you learn, you ask you learn
You live you learn

Punch Drunk Life

I've only been awake for about 3 hours and already I know that this is gonna be a really bad day.. I can feel it..

I kicked off this morning only to find that with my alarm clock did not go off leaving me about five minutes to wash-up and put together clothes to bring to the office (No, I'm not going to get into the details). To begin with, it wasn't even set at the right time so I figured I'm really meant to get to work late today. THEN, I backed into the gate as I was pulling out of the garage (Yes, quite haphazardly because I only had a little over 10 minutes to get to Makati from my house before color coding begins!) Funny too how there was a long line of MMDA officers along EDSA, near the gas station at the corner, pulling buses over and I just had to pass directly in front of them cos the other cars wouldn't let me switch lanes.

I get to the office in one piece and after a few minutes there, my finger gets caught on the bathroom door! (I have no idea how that happened really! I was on my way out already..) then I get a text message from my partner telling me she won't be coming in today, leaving me yet again with a pile of work and meetings to attend to! 3 whole meetings! 1-2-3!!! Stress!!! The day has barely begun and I feel so exhausteed and overwrought already!!! Haaaay..

The Universe is conspiring against me, I can feel it in my bones. (Sharon, you honestly can't blame me anymore for having the birthday blues right???!!! Don't drag Him into the picture this time! hehe)

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Funny how the new friendster "Who Viewed Me" feature has caused wide-spread panic. I heard from some friends that names and pictures were changed, accessibility and anonymity settings activated and accounts were actually erased. I won't even get into the number of "panic-driven" calls I got that day.. Hahaha :)

I knew it fromt he very start--Friendster is the Devil! (I actually have some personal stories that would validate this statement! Take Nora for example..I'm just kidding..hehe) What on earth have I gotten myself into??!!! In light of this, i would just like to share that In Vino is now online so add us up! (Bet you thought I was deleting my account again..) Let's be friends-ters.. :9

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(A belated) Birthday shoutout to mi Hermano Choz'! I had fun last night! We might fight and bicker like Mean Girls all the time but I Love You.. I've got your back always. Excited for the weekend much??! Um-outfit ka na to the highest levels! Hehehe :D

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Jammy, thank you. I almost slipped but you pulled me right out of it. Later okay? Fifi, CHECK! READ! You're missing out on some important stuff!!!

Breakfast on Friday okay? See you there! Love you girlies! :)

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I'm miserable and sleepy.. I so desperately need to drink and unwind! :S

An Excerpt

"All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that's a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who goves him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.

And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.

That is why regardless of what I might experience, do or learn, nothing makes sense. I hope this time passes quickly, so that I can resume my search for myself--in the form of a man who understands me and does not make me suffer.

But what am I saying? In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.

That is the true experience of freedom: having the msot important thing in the world without owning it."

- Maria, Paulo Coelho's Eleven Minutes

Ignite my Bones and Fix Me

I can't quite explain what's going on inside my head. I'm dazed and confused and a million and one thoughts keep spinning around. My world's turning upside down and inside out. I can't seem to grab a hold of myself. I'm not on solid ground.

It caught me off-guard. I thought I was numb. Is this for real? Is my mind playing tricks on me?

I don't want this. Not now. I'm not ready. Not yet. I'm not sane. But I want to be..I will be..Someday..Soon..

Will you come and fix me..?

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Fix You
Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

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Jammy, this is just a minor glitch in the system but you know that you're where you're supposed to be.. and that's nowhere near him. We love you! We're here.. (huuuuugs and kisses)