Goodbye my friend...

If there is one thing on this planet that gives me comfort (aside from retail therapy: i.e. shoes, bags and earrings, etc.), it would definitely have to be FOOD--oh glorious food! In the past 4 months alone, I have successfully put on 10 pounds albeit the fact that I have been popping fat-reducing pills (disclaimer: not as regularly as maybe boi_bitch! and imagine if I wasn't taking anything... fashion suicide!!!)

Hubby and I would go on crazy foodtrips--ranging from Mickie D's twister fries, chicken nuggets, KFC Asian chicken salad, more fries, home-cooked lechon kawali, Coco Cabana Salt & Pepper Spicy Squid and the list just goes on and on and on... He has quite an appetite I tell you but remains well in his weight class!

With my recent err-- "illness", and with my doctor--not being able to pinpoint what's causing the pain--has decided to put me on a low-fat/ soft diet program. Translation: fish, vegetables, fruits, oatmeal, etc. Plus she banned all forms of caffeine, alcohol, cigarettes and ICE CREAM!!!

me: Whaaaat?!! No ice cream?!! You've got to be kidding me! It's summer already!
doc: Sorry ka, mag-sorbet ka nalang!
me: Noooooooooooooooooo!!!! (stab stab stab slits her throat stab stab stab) (okay, this bit only happened in my head but you can't possibly blame me if I actually went through with it, right?!!)

Being naturally pasaway, I refuse to give up my smokes and my cocktails! It's bad enough that I can't eat dairy products (CHEESECAKE!!!) and what-not, so there... HA! :p

Our new favorite snack--(thanks to Eva Mendes on Oprah for Hitch)-- is Crunchy Tuna Sandwich made with white bread, tuna spread, cheese (that was before I couldn't have cheese anymore), lettuce, tomatoes and the magic ingredient--POTATO CHIPS. We've tried a few brands: V-cut, Doritos nacho Cheese and (today,MINUS the cheese of course) Wave Sour Cream and Cheddar and I just have to say that they're all pretty delish! Trust me, A definite must-try!

For now, I wallow in self-pity.. Goodbye sweet fatty goodness.. We shall be together again someday...

I'm BACK!!!

I'm back!

The past week has been a flurry of events on an unrelenting rollercoaster ride that has left me breathless, bruised and broken (physically, emotionally, mentally and even spiritually). If not for the small amount of sanity that I hold on dearly to, I might not have survived the week that was.

It's been awhile since Holy Week actually made a dent in my life. This year, unlike others, it came and went leaving me with a lot of room for doubt in my heart. I can't even begin to explain or relate the events that came to pass but at the very least, they have passed (or I'd like to think so...)

A lot of questions were posed to me and by me this past week, many of which I feel remain unanswered not because I'm not fully aware of the answers but maybe because I am scared to. No, this isn't a pre-quarter life crisis rant. At 24, I know that I've been through so much more than the average 40 year-old. I was trained (maybe not purposely) to be strong and to remain strong at all times. I'm no ice queen, but I can keep my emotions in check with a poker face to match. My friends always say that "You're a tough girl... You can handle anything... You're the strongest person I know...".. I'm so tired... I just want to crash... I don't want to be strong all the time but I'm so scared that no one will be there to catch me when I fall and that I'll break into unmendable pieces. This week, I've proven yet again just how strong I can be.. but at what expense?! I feel like I've lost a lot, too much really...I'm just so tired of fighting--fighting to stay alive, fighting to stay afloat. I just want to lay back and have someone hold me up.

These past three days have been the most trying for me, punctuated with trips to the hospital thanks to an undefinable pain in my side. True-to-form, aside from Easter Sunday Mass, I avoided going to church though I felt an urge to. Mainly because I would only be propelled to point an accusing finger and ask "WHY?!!" As always, He catches me off-guard and gives me a little something to hold on to. Things might actually start looking-up for me.

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(A very belated) Happy Birthday to YOU! How I wish I could've made your day the most "perfect" day of your life... I just hope I'll get another shot at it next year and many years after.

I LOVE YOU FOREVER and FOR ALWAYS... You hold my heart in your hands, please don't ever let go...

Chichi, Hinny, Fifi and Jam.. THANK YOU! Trust that "pang matagalan ito!"

Shameless Plug!

This is my first ever (shameless) fashion plugs.

I finally got my karsones from my ubercool surfer-chick friend, Deng. Them kewl! hehe :) I haven't tested them out just yet but I'm pretty sure that they'll be well-worn in the months to follow.

Yhey're basically simple wrap-around pants that are perfect for summer. They come in different colors (I got mine in white), as well as different prints and embellishments plus they're unisex so anyone can wear them. Go and grab one now!

deng in her printed karsones

Birthday shoutout for my friend K! Luvya' haneh! *kisses*

I'm a Pwincess!

I want nothing more than to curl-up in bed with a good book or with a barrage of John Hughes movies playing, stay under the covers while the airconditioner keeps the room frozen and just veggetate there...

Oh, wait! There are actually some things that I want reeeaaally baaaaaad at this very moment:

...to hit the beach and get a tan!


...to soak in a tub full of petals and feel like a Princess!


...followed by a relaxing massage.


...to actually have the body to wear this (in public)

...to---wait! Women should never have to explain "shoes". It's a given! :9

I'm obviously in dire need of pampering and taking care of! I just feel so beaten down. I need a breather! Haaaaaay! :S

In other news...

uber-cool Spy-sisters! (Why can't we all look like that and have a body like theirs?! Why?! Why?!)

I am hooked on Alias Season Four--Thanks hubby! Mwaaaaah! :)

Spy-sisters, Spy-daddies, new revelations, weird twists, new un-deads, new office, mor Rambaldi-nonsense, same crazy-disturbed characters.. I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! (Okay, maybe it's not as great as last season but I don't care.. so there! :p)

Thanks to my Alias obsession, I've actually gotten him hooked too! hahaha :) And if Mom gets to read this, she will really disown me for not sharing my loot with her. He complains that I get really autistic when I watch and often times we have 3-episode marathons (that's a little over 2 hours). You can't talk to me, can't ask me questions, can't move my from my place in front of the TV, etc. It's simple really--he has his Xbox games, PS2 games and whatnot and I have my Alias.

If you want your own copies, let me know. My hubby can order for you! :)

Family Affair

After a harrowing day of buzzer-beater deadlines, I must de-stress! What better way than to share one of the fun--nest weekends I've had in awhile.

Saturday morning was yet another turning point in my life. I guess it's about time I acted more on my feelings and the things that I say. Needless to say, I found the courage to swallow (a big mouthful even) my pride to do what's right and what's truly in my heart. The result=Happily ever after.

The afternoon was a whirlwind of events--with the Boston house blessing. QT at the parlor and dinner at Dencio's Greenhills to celebrate my Lolo's birthday. We weren't complete but as usual, the stories and the non-stop kakulitan made-up for the other people's absence.

Hubby was there with me of course. I just love how my family interacts with him now. Our relationship has really come a loooooong way. From my Mom barely acknowledging his presence to actually looking for him, asking him to join us, and making him a part of "family" activities. He was the designated driver for the day and my parents were treating him as they would if it was my brother Chocy driving. I even caught him having converstions with just my Dad or with just my Mom. I just feel so giddy-happy! :)

The highlight of the Dencio's dinner, I jammed with W2 (woody, Wally + daddy Rockers of course!) onstage. It's been awhile since I've played the k-hon hence the painful blisters on my fingers--but it was well worth it! :)

After pigging out on crispy pata, grilled squid and tuna, sinigang, sisig and a host of other viands, we headed for Kohikan for some coffee/ tea and dessert. They have yummy Japanese cheesecake that goes well with green tea. I. AM. A. PIG. Haaaaay!

The night ended after spending QT with my Hubby. I just know that this is it --> "Marital" bliss! heeheehee :D

with Hubby at Dencio's

jamming with W2 to "Do I Need A Reason" and "Crazy For You"

I LOVE THIS SHIRT ON HIM! GUAPOOOO! Heehee :D

hangin' with bro' at Kohikan

I'll try to post other photos--> there were some funny shots of Mom, Tita VIoly and Lolo Inong.. SInce they don't go online, you might as well get a glimpse of them. (I'm a bad bad bad girl!)

We're watching Bahay ni Lola 2 tonight to support a dear friend. Please do try to catch it too! :D

Bop Bop Bop

When the waves are rough, we go boppin'!

It's Like That
Mariah Carey feat Jermaine Dupri and Fatman Scoop

I came to have a party
Open up the Bacardi
Feeling so hot tamale
Boy, I know you watchin me
So what's it gonna be?
Purple taking me higher
I'm lifted and I like it
Boy, you got me inspired
Baby, come and get it
If you're really feelin me

Cuz it's, my night,
No stress, no fights,
I'm leavin it all behind,
No tears, no time to cry,
Just makin the most of life,

Everybody is livin it up,
All the fellas keep lookin' at us (cuz)
Me and my girls on the floor like what
While the DJ keeps on spinnin the cut
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)

You like this and you know it
Caution, it's so explosive
Them chickens is ash and I'm lotion
Baby, come and get it
Let me give you what you need
It's a special occasion Reggie's emancipation
A cause for celebration
I ain't gonna let nobody's drama bother me

Let's Go Now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)
Let's Go Now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)

A Mirror Has Two Faces

Call it cheesy, but though this song is over-used, over-played and over-covered, Keith Martin's Because of You will always manage to tug at my heartstrings wherever, whenever because it brings me back to a "happy place" that I hold near and dear...a place I seek refuge in.. a place where I store my hopes and dreams...

Now comes, a song with the same title...It's just so ironic that while both songs carry the same title and maybe even the same passion in its verses, they mean two extremely different things.

Because Of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

On another note, 15 months yesterday and counting... (more tugs at my heart) :)

I'm HOME!

I first heard this song on Ally McBeal a few years back when Glenn (with a name like that, it really must be fate! played by James Marsden) sang to Jenny (Julianne Nicholson). I was addicted to that series, mainly because I had dreams of becoming a lawyer (then, and maybe until now...) and because the McBealisms and Fishisms and Cage-isms (I made that one up!) carried a lot of truth for me--that while I was becoming cynical and jaded, I remained somewhat hopeful. So, here's a blast from my past and a chunk of my heart.

Always On My Mind
Elvis Presley/ Fantasia Barrino

Maybe I didn't love you quite as often as I could have,
Maybe I didn't treat you quite as good as I should have,
If I'm made to feel second best, I'm so sorry I was blind...
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times,
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine,
Little things I should have said and done,
I just never took the time...
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died,
Baby, give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied,
Because you're always on my mind...
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind