For Lack of A Sense of Purpose

Bored out of my skull. I should be working but...

Stole this from LR! Thanks Hanehbunch! :9

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Name 25 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don’t read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 25 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.

1. H
2. Vaky
3. Veky
4. Jammy
5. Fifi
6. Jojo
7. Leona
8. Leandro
9. Sis Mariel
10. Tagteam Partner
11. Bebeh
12. Mylabs
13. Boppers
14. HeyBro
15. Matteo
16. Lancey
17. Kurly
18. G-girl
19. Abu
20. Bro
21. Kapatid
22. Toppers
23. Mareng Dinny
24. Papa Ken
25. Carina

how did you meet #3?
Si Veky ang Reyna ng Pancitan! (hehehe)

what would you do if #4 and #5 were going out?
Jammy and Fifi - The 3 of us made a pact to NEVER EVER join that team. We've just been through too much together

what do you know about #6?
Jojo - is in the States, working his ass off and spending that money on them Hoes! Joooke! :9

what do you think of #8?
Leandro is addicted to red bull!

what would you do if #7 confessed that he/she loves you?
Leona - Wag po Ate!!! Hehehe :)

a fact about #21?
Kapatid - He's got my back, I just gotta holla'! Mahal ako nyan, mahal ko din sya.

who's going out with #1
ME!!! :D

what's #9 do for a living?
Sis Mariel - Aliping Sagigilid like me.. Hehehe.. Pero sya may condo, ako wala! :9

what do you like about #22?
Toppers - She has smurfs for friends cos she's funny like that! Hahaha ;)

do you miss #24?
Papa Ken - I miss our W Club meetings! :)

what's your opinion of #10?
Tagteam Partner - KrungKrung yan paminsan pero mahal ko yan. She gives me a different perspective on things. Have you seen our childhood??!! ;)

what do you think of #23?
Mareng Doc Dinny - She's gonna rock the medical world! We've been through so much together. I just know whatever happens, we'll always have each other (in the non-lessie way of course).

what would you do if #11 and #20 were going out?
Bebeh & Bro - Hmmm.. pwede kasi cute tingnan pero may mga mag-aamok..

who does #2 like?
Vaky - Hmmmm... ang dami! Puro pang hi-class! Hahaha :D

would you ever go to the movies with #9?
Sis Mariel - Wala pa kaming natutuloy na lakad! Anobuzz??!!

is #4 hot?
Jammy - Damn straight!!!

what can you say about #19?
Abu - Definitely one of the most creative people I know. Infinite possibilities Luv!

does #18 know #16?
G-girl and Lancey - Yep. We move in small circles.

will #17 and #15 work out as lovers?
Kurly and Matteo - Kurly would geet the chair, altthough Matteo would love this! :9

is #12 friendly?
Mylabs - Naman! Best PM ever! :D

are you close to #2?
Vaky - Bluetooth Zizter

ever dated #14?
HeyBro - That would be incest even if he's actually an in-law!

is #15 a good friend of yours?
Matteo - is my baby boy! :)

what would you say to #1?
H - You know you love me. XOXO. :D

what would you like to say to #4?
Jammy - I muss you! I miss you! I miss you! Where are you??!!

ever had a fight with #11?
H - Yeah.. but it's all good. He's my sunshine! :D

describe #17
Kurly - is the curliest Chica Picante. She's "In Love" too.. :D

what if #11 and #15 dated?
Bebeh and Matteo - Silya Elektrika! Sa height lang pwede.. Hahaha :D

would #16 and #19 make a good couple?
Lancey and Abu - I don't really see this happening.. even in a parallel universe..;)

is #14 a good kisser?
HeyBro - I'm gonna have to confirm with Boppers but so far, the reviews have been great! Hahaha :D

who does #3 love?
Veky - Ang mga Bakal Boys at Kakrongers (represent y'all! ) Hehehe :D

if #4 were to go out with #9, would #5 get mad?
Jammy and Sis Mariel + Fifi - Ummm, no judgement..???

was #20 ever with someone from your list of names above?
Bro - Hmmm.. kaya sya naging Bro.. :p

who does #25 like?
Car - loves Gar! :D

is #24 nice?
Papa Ken - Yep, he's a sweetheart! :)

is #13 weird?
Boppers - is sugar and spice and everything nice! Hehehe :D

Quick Fix

I was introduced by my Uncle to a new remedy for the common cough and colds--> Vicks vaporub! I know it's really an "old school" remedy but he had me place it before bedtime on the soles of my feet, right before I cover them with socks. I woke up this morning feeling better and surprisingly, without wanting to break into a coughing fit. Try it for yourselves!

(Hmmm.. I wonder if this is a sign for me to take up smoking again.. It's only been 1 day!!! Ugh!!!)

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In the middle of our very first (and hopefully last) semi-heated argument, N/H stopped me dead in my tracks last night with this question: "Ano bang pinaka-importante sayo ngayon?".
It placed things in the 'right' perspective.
He reminded me that we should process our thoughts, words and actions beforehand...
That we should choose our battles...
That my past-while it affects my/our present- is exactly what it is: in the past and I should l learn to let those hurts go...
That we shouldn't let the little things affect our relationship that way...
That he understands and he knows that I understand him as well...
That he loves me and he would never hurt me...
That I am the most important thing/person to him now...
That loving me is what matters most to him...
That I may not be 100% but that's okay..

It was one of those lightbulb moments that I think will change the way I look at our relationship and all my other relationships from here on end. Last night could've gone worse in so many ways but it didn't because he doesn't have as much pride as I do and because he knows what's important to him. He may not really know how to handle me exactly but he's learning and he's teaching me a few lessons along the way. I'm loving this journey with him.. :)

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NO ONE
Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I dont worry cause
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I'm telling you that

On Hiatus

I just smoked my last cigarette. CRAP!

I am not a quitter (funny how this line can be applied this way, hehehe) so I won't go and say that I just quit smoking but I will say that I'm going to TRY to not smoke for awhile-- especially since I haven't stopped coughing since last week. I am, however, free to take up smoking whenever the need arises or when I feel that I just really want one, expecting no judgement from anyone and everyone.

Wish me luck! :p

two

N/H and I had a fab and kitschy dinner at Fat Michael's last night. I felt like I was in a Shabby Chic segment which is a good thing really beacuse the place provided just the right atmosphere for us, especially considering we both had crazy days at our separate Pancitans.

We arrived just on time--which was a wee bit earlier than our 9pm reservation--so we didn't have to wait as long as I thought we would because they got to our order as soon as we placed it. We feasted on yummy seafood and kesong puti pizza, aligue pasta, beef salpicao, a bottle of Merlot and capped our meal with choco coffee cake (super rich and absolutely divine!). I've actually been meaning to try this place out for a couple of years but I guess I just never got around to it. I've been constantly building a list of food finds that I want to check out over the years. It's nice that N/H and I actually still have a lot of "firsts" to experience together given our individual histories. He might argue but I must say that this trumps our Paseo Uno dinner. Good thing for him, he has V-day to top this little production. Hehehe :)





























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Things here at the Pancitan are... I dunno really. I feel like I'm at a loss for words but I manage to get through each and evry day. We manage. Thank goodness for the AutoVaksters whom I rely on dearly for sanity here and for the Partner/s who come through for you in their own little way and who can reach out to you subtly, putting aside differneces you may have had in the past... It's complicated but not really. I wish I had a real concrete tangible solution.. Wish wish wish..

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While there are things that are topsy-turvy, I'm still in a relatively good disposition. I credit a whole lot of this to my family (main plus my Kapatids, etc.) and N/H of course. You're my happy pills! XOXO!!! :*

BUBBLY
Colby Caillat

I've been awake for a while now
You got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Of Witches and Warlocks

We had a rather interesting New Year celebration at my Mum's house last week. I don't quite know how the conversattion went that way but it was cool but at the same time pretty freaky considering it was the first time my other cousins opened up about what was going on in their lives.

After a friendly visit from the family's resident psychic Angel over the weekend, we soon discovered that our clan is somewhat like Hogwarts-in-the making. We have psychics, healers, pre-cogs, elementals, spirit-guides and the like in our family. We even had eerie images of our "friends/neighbors" who joined us on our "holiday getaway" in Tagaytay during Christmas. It was a hardcore party--except we weren't exactly aware of it until last weekend. I am (sadly, i think) one of the more normal ones -- a Muggle or a borderline Mudblood maybe but I suppose I should consider myself lucky. Life can be so much more complicated when you have these violators to change your decision-making process. I have enough on my plate --Thank You Very Much! Hahaha :D

Aside from our "Wiizarding" crash-course, Angel gave us our usual readings and the answers to a lot of our questons. It's scary and unnerving to hear some of the things that she had to say but we are reminded that these are mere guidelines. Anything and everything can change depending on the decisions and actions that we make in the coming days, weeks.. I suppose we just need to make a more conscious effort to avoid things that could lead to the fulfillment of her "bad" readings (and to do everything to draw in and attract the good vibes! Hehe)


Do you see what I see??!!! ;)