Goodbye 2005! Hello 2006! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

What a crazy rollercoaster ride this has been! I'm so amazed at the experiences that I've been through in the past few months alone and I'm even more surprised to find that I actually survived it all. Already, I feel that I am so different from the person I thought I was last year. While recent events might prove otherwise, I know that things will just keep getting better and better for me. I can't wait for the rest of my life to unravel before my very eyes.

The key people in my life this year:
- Jammy and Fifi: You saved me! You held me up and you kept me bouncing and bopping. You are the loves of my life and I will be forever grateful for everything that you've done for me.
- Mareng Boppers: Matty is a gem and even now, I know that he understands how lucky he is to have you for his mother. You showed me that distance will never be an issue for us. Thank you for being there for me Mare. I'm so glad you're back and I'm so happy that you have someone who cares for you in the way that you deserve.
- Tagteam partner: I can't believe how we've bonded in such a short span of time. Work is fun even with the stress because of our yosi/bull sessions. Thank you for trusting me and for letting me into your life. I look forward to working on more projects with you (at the helm sana.. ;) )
- Nora and Sharon: Everyone's been busy with their own stuff these past few weeks and I haven't really had the chance to spend QT with you guys. I miss you really! :( I'll always hold our adventures close to my heart (kahit walang kwentang mga wingmen kayo minsan..hehehe) because you both made me laugh and smile when I needed it the most. You kept my mind off things that I shouldn't bother myself with..Happiness all over!
- My family: I'm sorry for being away for so long but I promise to never let anybody or anything come before any of you again..Thank you for loving me unconditionally, especially when I'm psychotic and hormonal.

2005 Big Events/ Accomplishments:
- I'm back in the band scene! Admittedly, we haven't really meshed well (given we've only been playing for about 3 months), but it just puts me on such a high. The nerves mixed with adrenalin is euphoric!
- From being a Content Officer (I think I've forgotten my past job title! Eeeep! Alzheimer's!), I am now an EP/ Production Designer/ Wardrobe Stylist/ Make-up Artist/ Talent. Bebeh calls me "Reg-of-all-trades" because of the odd jobs I've been doing but it's been so much fun, really!
- I am now a driver girl! It's so liberating that I don't have to depend on anybody and that I'm not left stranded somewhere with no way home. I swear never to allow that to happen to me again!
- I am slowly but surely finding my way back to Him. It's the little things and the few seconds in each day that counts. It's a good habit and I just hope that I can sustain it next year.
- I have a better grasp of my self-worth and my self-esteem. I'm learning new things about myself each day and I feel more in control of my life.

2006 will be here before we know it. I can't wait! :D

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I just have to share that our shoot went well and I'm so proud of my Bangaw team! I never would've made it through without you guys. Sorry for the multiple awarding ceremonies..It's the pressure! :p

It seems as if each shoot is harder than the last and it shocks me no end that I've been pulling it off. I'm gonna have a very interesting resume.. Hehehe :D

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SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
Tori Amos

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There’s a place a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dream that you dare to dream
Really does come true

One day I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Way upon the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why, oh why can’t i?

Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Way upon the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why, oh why can’t i?

Deck The Halls

Yes, I've been such a delinquent blogger so I'm making up for lost time with this extremely long (and possibly incoherent) post!

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Only 4 more days until Christmas but technically 3 more days until the celebrations begin. I always look forward to these Yuletide family get-togethers because there's always so much to do, so much to partake in, so much to share. It's just fun being around my family because they're all crazy and we share the same sense of humor.

Here at the office, people are more focused on a different countdown--Only 5 more days until THE SHOOT! Yipeeee! Yes folks, I shall be working on the 26th to the 28th. I'm not complaining really because with the expenses I've incurred this holiday season, I really oughta work my ass off. I'm pretty sure I'll be working on the 24th and 25th so that's somewhat dampening my holiday spirit (not that I had much to begin with..)

There's a lot to do for this project and I'm a bit nervous about it. In one way though, I'm glad that my boss trusts me enough to handle it. I just pray that everything runs smoothly..or it's my head on the line! :S

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I was finally able to spend quality time with my girls last night at the oddest of places. It still amazes me to this day how we can talk about anything and everything and never run out of things to say. It's these marathon sessions that keep me sane. It's good to be able to let all the madness out in front of people who love you unconditionally--NO JUDGEMENT!

Luv you plenty Jammy and Fifi! I'll see you at our "Christmas party" tonight! We're so funny--I love it! Hahaha :D

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Super belated birthday shout-outs to my Bro and mi Mama. You are my life and our family is all I have. I just want to do anything and everything in my power to make you happy. I hope that Kuysie and I were able to make your days special.

Japie, you're part of the family too so Happy Birthday! I hope it was a good one.

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We're playing tonight at Stir Crazy at the Tycoon Center, Amethyst Drive (behind Pearl Drive) in Ortigas. The gig starts at around 8pm so I hope you guys can make it. Plus tomorrow is our guitarist Beebee's birthday so it should be a fun night.

Dens, you know I love you even when you're snappish (and especially even when I'm sungit! Hahaha!) Alak nato! Happy Birthday! :9

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I met with my "psychic" friend a couple of weeks ago and bottomline, 2006 should be a good year for me (and for everyone as well) and it offers a lot of promise.. Suffice to say, I'm just going to wait and see how things will unfold.. :D

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I just can't bring myself to post a Christmas Carol or a happy-joy-joy Holiday song so here...

New Year
Sugababes

Sitting here stressing at 2:30am
About how fast the year can go
I wonder where it went
If we start all over again, would it really work
I know that you could be, could be, coming back to me

Mesmerized, but of thoughts of fear
Traumatized, I'm so scared to feel
Wanna stop thinking gotta get to sleep
Gotta wake up fresh, get on my feet
Push the thought of you away
Do it today

I'm older than my years
Drowning in my tears
Surrounded by the fear
Since you went away, a year ago
At Christmas

You locked away your secrets
Kept them away from me
I only came to say goodbye, now you finally see
You wanna start all over again, make it work this time
But I don't wanna end up feeling far away from fine

I memorized, what you said to me
So surprised, it was hell to be
So frustrated with the way we were
Not a single word could make it work
Now look at us today
We blew it away

I'm older than my years
Drowning in my tears
Surrounded by the fear
Since you went away, a year ago
At Christmas

Shameless Plug

Catch In Vino this Friday, December 9 at Top Venue Libis, right beside Grilla. We start playing at around 9pm. Please please come and watch (and bring your friends too!)

In Memoriam

Sorry
Maria Mena

Vague sound of rain
Pierces through my song again
But I get distracted
By the way his toes move when he plays
So I let it burn

I just poured my heart out
There's bits of it on he floor
And I take what's left of it
And rinse i under cold water
And call him up for more

And I say baby
Yes I feel stupid to call you
But I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it
When you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do
You'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry, so sorry
I'm sorry, so sorry

He grabs my wrist
As my fingers turn into angry fists
And I whisper why can't you love me
I'll change for you
I'll play the part

And I say baby
Yes I feel stupid to call you
But I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it
When you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do
You'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry, so sorry
I'm sorry
I am so sorry