29 March, 2006

When DOMs Attack

Can I just share that I just had the most frightful experience in the whole of my--albeit seemingly short--PD career??!!!

Whenever I work as Production Designer/ Wardrobe Stylist, I am tasked with taking the measurements of talents who come for final casting, This way, once the talents are approved by the agency or by the client, I can easily rush to the nearby mall and buy costumes and make it back in time for set/ props/ costume check.

me: Name? Age? Height? etc...
DOM: is that even necessary? Okay..39.
me: (proceeds to take measurements of his shoulders then chest)
DOM: (plants a wet one on my cheek)
me: (wide-eyed and frozen in place)
DOM: I'm so sorry, it won't happen again. Promise! (winks) It's just that you're complexion is...blah blah blah..
me: (proceeds to take measurements of his waistline and hips) That's all, thank you.
DOM: Are you done with me? with my pants?
me: Yes.
DOM: How about my crotch?
me: (run out straight to the Asst. Director, Prod.Manager and Prod.Asst shaking and almost in tears)

Suffice to say, they caused a bit of a riot kicking the sicko out of the office. As far as our client and agency is concerned, his career is over. What a cretin!!! I can hardly believe that fuckers like him exist! (granted I've met quite a few assholes in this lifetime, i just never thought they stay pricks when they're that old..ULk!!!)

Everyone was asking me why I didn't slap the guy. I guess I just didn't want to call attention to the situation and I didn't want to cause a scene, aside from the fact that I was too shell-shocked to react. Ugh!!! Wala lang.. I just had to share..

When the World Stops and Starts

"The first time I saw you, my heart fell. The second time I saw you, my heart fell. The third time fourth time fifth time and every time since, my heart has fallen.
I stared at her.
You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Your hair, your eyes, your lips, your body that you haven't grown into, the way you walk, smile, laugh, the way your cheeks drop when you're mad or upset, the way you drag your feet when you're tired. Every single thing about you is beautiful.
I stared at her.
When I see you, the World stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The World just stops, and its a beautiful place, and there is only you. Just you, and my eyes staring at you.
I stared.
When you're gone, the World starts again, and I don't like it as much. I can live in it, but I don't like it. I jsut walk around in it and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It's the best fucking thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, beautiful Girl, is why I stare at you."

-James Frey
A Million Little Pieces

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It's somewhat unhealthy how I end up with a plastic bag of books whenever I visit Fully Booked or Powerbooks these past couple of months considering the pile of unread books that already sits on my bedside table although I've made some pretty good and interesting/entertaining buys. The latest being A Million Little Pieces by james Frey. It's a memoir or an autobiography of a 23-year old addict/alcoholic. i haven't gotten to the end of it but it's been a good read so far. The last Oprah Book Club book that I bought was White Oleander and I'm happy that this pick doesn't disappoint.

My heart stopped as I read these lines. Most people might find these lines cheesey but I suppose at this point in my life, at this very moment, I would honestly kill for someone to say this to me and actually mean it. Work is again taking it's toll on me and the lack of a social life is making me somewhat lonely. I want to be loved this way. I want to be able to stop someone dead in his tracks, as if mesmerized by something that he--and maybe only he--sees in me. In the same light, I want to feel this way for somebody whose presence is so compelling that it stuns me into silence. I dunno..My hormones are obviously imbalanced again.

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Thank YOU for making me smile and for being such a sweetheart. YOU keep me entertained, especially during the crazy hours when I'm at a shoot. I love how YOU make me laugh with the little things that YOU say or do or how you pull me close and how you seem to want to keep me even closer to you. Sometimes I'm bothered by how things between us are untitled or how they don't exactly fall into a certain category but on the other hand, I'm starting to take comfort in the limbo that we are in. I'm not ready for another commitment and I'm glad that I don't have any decisions to make. We fit--maybe not perfectly but enough to enjoy each other's company. Right now, that's all I really need and want...

By the way, YOU owe me...and I plan on collecting soon (when I'm not too busy..promise!).. :)

15 March, 2006

Luv It! Luv 'Em!

Work has been more fun because of my Bangaw Team! We've only been working together a few months so it's remarkable how well we gel--whether it be over hot pandesal, spicy sardines, yosi, nomu, milk tea, chicken supreme, chili sauce and other "ahem" subtances.

It makes me so proud and it puts me on such a high seeing the fruits of our labor on TV. I'm seriously contemplating a shift in careers but with all the projects coming in, I haven't the time to sit down and make a gameplan. I definitely would like to go back to school and take up a few courses to make the shift legit but when do I have the time for it?? And is this really what I want? Maybe if I have my team to back me up.. Hmmm...

Obviously, we spend our free time on the set camwhoring.. hehe :p More picutres once the TVC comes out! :)






07 March, 2006

Odd...

Someone sent me this through e-mail but I don't know who or why.. (boibitch wasdachuuu???!!!) Hmmmmm..

Slow Down
Natalie Imbruglia

You got it the wrong way 'round completely
The fact that I love you so
Doesn't make me a fool
One day you just might grow tired of chasing
The end of a rainbow
You're already there you know

So slow down
Tell me why you're running
And turn around
Let it out and keep it coming
Nothing I can do
If I can't get to you
Slow down

Remember the day you came to see me
Even that lonely long drive
Couldn't keep us apart
And you opened up to me completely
And you gave me piece of mind
The rest we can leave behind

You don't have to hurt yourself
And feel so small
It's so confusing
And you're already there

So slow down
Tell me why you're running
And turn around
Let it out and keep it coming
Nothing I can do
If I can't get to you
Slow down

Slow down

06 March, 2006

Exactly!!!

I received this through e-mail. This was written (I think..) by Melvin Mangada of TBWA-Santiago, Mangada, Puno. I share the same sentiments so while it's a long read, I promise it is worth your while. Enough already, REALLY! Let's all just please get with the program.

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An Open Letter to Our Leaders

Dear Tita Cory, Senators, Congressmen, Businessmen, Media people, Leftists, and all Bleeding Hearts Out There:

I am angry. And I know that there are many out there who are angrier than I am for the same reason. And that reason is simple. I am sick and tired of all you guys claiming to speak for me and many Filipinos. I feel like screaming every time you mouth words about fighting for my freedom and my rights, when you obviously are just thinking about yours. You tell me that the essence of democracy is providing every citizen the right to speak his or her mind and make his or her own informed judgments, but you yourselves do not respect my silence and the choices I and many others have made. In
other words, your concept of democracy is limited to having your rights and your freedoms respected, at the expense of ours.

I am utterly flabbergasted that you still do not get it: we already responded to your calls, and our response has been very clear - we chose not to heed your calls to go to EDSA or to Fort Bonifacio not because we do not love our country or our freedoms or our rights, but precisely because we love our country even more. Because quite frankly, we are prepared to lose
our freedoms and our rights just to move this country forward. You may think that is not correct, you can tell me all the dire warnings about the evils of authoritarian rule, but quite frankly all we see is your pathetic efforts to prop up your cause. You tell me that you are simply protecting my freedoms and my rights, but who told you to do that? I assure you that when
I feel that my rights and my freedoms are at a peril, I will stand up and fight for them myself.

You tell us that GMA is not the right person to lead this country because she has done immoral acts. As someone who sees immorality being committed wantonly in many ways every day and by everyone (yes, including the ones you do), I may have become jaded. But you have not been able to offer me any viable alternative, while GMA has bent over backwards many times to accommodate you while continuing to work hard despite all the obstacles and the brickbats you have thrown her way. From where I sit, she is the one who has been working really hard to move this country forward while all of you have been so busy with one and only one thing: to make sure she does not succeed. So forgive me if I do not want to join you in your moral pissing contest. Forgive me if I have chosen to see things from another perspective. You say she is the problem. I say, we are the problem, more to the point, I think you are a bigger problem than she is. Taking her out may solve part of
the problem, but that leaves us with a bigger problem: you. That is right, YOU!

While I felt outraged that she called a Comelec official during the elections and that she may have rigged the elections, I have since then taken the higher moral ground and forgiven her. Yes my dear bishops, I have done what you have told me to do since I was a child, which you say is the Christian and moral thing to do: forgive. Especially since she has asked for
forgiveness and has tried to make amends for it. Erap certainly has not apologized and continues to be defiant, continuing to insult us everyday with his protestations. Cory has not apologized for her incompetence but we have forgiven her just the same because like GMA, she has worked hard after all.

I know you do not think that GMA's apology was not enough, or that she was insincere, or that that apology should not be the end of it, but please spare me the hypocrisy of telling me that you do so for the sake of protecting the moral fiber of society. The real reason is because you smell blood and wants to go for the kill.

Well, I have news for you. I do not like her too. I did not even vote for her. I voted for Raul Roco. But as much as I do not like her, I do not like you even more. I may not trust her, but guess what; I do not trust you even more.

You know why? Because all you do is whine and sabotage this country. You belittle every little progress we make; conveniently forgetting that it is not just GMA who has been working so hard to achieve them. Every single day,
we keep the faith burning in our hearts that this country will finally pull itself out of the mess and we work so hard to do that. Every little progress is the result of our collective effort, we who toil hard everyday in our jobs. Yet, you persist in one and only thing: making GMA look bad in the eyes of the world and making sure that this country continues to suffer to
prove your sorry point. In the process, you continue to destroy what we painstakingly try to build. So please do not be surprised that I do not share your cause. Do not be surprised that we have become contemptuous of your antics. You have moved heaven and earth to destroy her credibility, you have convened all kinds of fora and hearings and all you have done is testour patience to the core. For all your effort, you have only succeeded in dragging us further down. I say enough.

Don't get me wrong. I am not asking that we take immorality lying down, or that we let the President get away with anything illegal. But you have tried to prove your accusations all these time and you have not succeeded, so itis time to let things be. Besides, you are doing something immoral as well if not utterly unforgivable. The Magdalo soldiers are consorting with the
communists - the same people who have been trying to kill democracy foryears. Cory has been consorting with Erap and the Marcoses.

So please wake up and take a reality check. In the absence of true and genuine moral leadership, many of us have decided to cast our lot with the President, even if we do not like her. A flawed leader is better than scheming power hungry fools who can not even stand up for their convictions in the face of an impending arrest.

Your coup attempts and the denials that you have consequently made only underscore what we think is true: you are spineless and unreliable people whose only defense is to cry suppression when your ruse do not work. You are
like bullies who taunt and provoke, but cry oppression when taken to task for your cruelty.

I would have respected you if you took the consequences of your actions like real heroes: calmly and responsibly instead of kicking and screaming and making lame excuses. You say you are willing to die for us, that you do all these things for the country and the Filipino, but you are not even willing to go to jail for us.

Come on, you really think we believe that you did not want to bring down the government when that is the one and only thing you have been trying to do in the last many months?

We love this country and we want peace and progress. Many among us do not give a f*&k who sits at Malacanang because we will work hard and do our share to make things work. If you only do your jobs, the ones that we elected you to do, things would be a lot simpler and easier for every one.

The events during the weekend only proved one thing. You are more dangerous and a serious threat to this country than GMA is. We have seen what you are capable of doing - you are ready to burn this country and reduce everything
to ashes just to prove your point. If there is something that we need protection from, it is protection from you.