EMO Overload

I am a certified emotional fuckwit right now. I am honestly beginning to lose control over everything--I actually cracked at work yesterday and I know that I am capable of cracking at any given moment. Unfortunately for me, my boss even caught me in the midst of my breakdown. My life is soooo peachy-keen! Woohoo! :D --I'm being sarcastic of course!

On one hand, was able to reconnect with an "old" friend. It's been months since we last spoke for reasons I would rather leave undisclosed. I'm just glad that we were able to talk again. I guess in order to see things for what they really are, it's important to step back and step away. There's always a bigger picture. We just can't always see it.

This is for you Manokky... Thank you for reminding me that friends are friends no matter what. I'm glad to know you're still there for me. I know you're better than this, so I don't even have to say it. we both know you're gonna be okay in no time at all... :)

WALTZ
Hale

I hate the way you are
So mean to me by far
The most frigid girl
That i have ever known

You speak loudly, but
When i'm not around
You'll be just like them
So shallow and obnoxious

Please...
That's enough, That's enough...
Please...

I've said this a million times before
And i'm sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

You said that you'd call
But time you'll be at home
But you never did
You said you did mean to

Now i'm outraged
As if we're engaged
You made me realize
I'm just your alibi

And all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

I hate you..

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This is for me...
...because everytime I feel that maybe I'm doing something right, you always manage to prove me wrong...

SOMEDAY
Nina

Someday, you're gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think, you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Cos' Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day. I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday. someday

Right now
I know you can' t tell
I'm down and I'm not doing well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

100

Because this is my 100th post, I think it is but-fitting for me to clue you in on (more like shamefully reveal) the origin of the title of this (ktv) blog.

But before all of that, I decided to backtrack and make a list of what made it to the soundtrack of my life in the past year or so..

1. Ghost - Indigo Girls
2. How to Save a Life - The Fray
3. Super Duper Love - Joss Stone
4. Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield
5. If You're Missin' (COme on Home)- Bethany Joy Lenz
6. Fragile - Maria Mena
7. Gone - Kelly Clarkson
8. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
9. If I Was Your Woman - Alicia Keys
10. Pretty Good Year - Tori Amos
11. Have a Little Faith in Me - John Hiatt/ Mandy Moore
* I posted this twice. Oh Ye' of lil' Faith! Tsk tsk tsk...
12. Girl Next Door - Saving Jane
13. Catch Me - In Vino
* Technically, this hasn't been played in front of a live audience...
14. Happy - Square Heads
15. Slow Down - Natalie Imbruglia
16. Escapade - Janet Jackson
17. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
18. Sa Uulitin - Mojofly
19. All I Wanna Do - Sheryl Crow
20. Beer - Itchyworms
21. Push the Button - Sugababes
22. Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Tori Amos
23. New Year - Sugababes
24. Sorry - Maria Mena
25. Ikot - Stonefree
26. Stick With You - They Pussycat Dolls
27. With You - Jessica Simpson
28. Suntok sa Buwan - Session Road
29. Beneath the Surface - Incognito
30. You Learn - Alanis Morisette
31. Fix You - Coldplay
32. I Tried to Rock You but You Only Roll - Leona Naess
33. Dying - Five for Fighting
34. Wake Up - Hilary Duff
35. Dare You to Move - Switchfoot
36. 32 Flavors - Alana Davis
37. Heaven Help - Lenny Kravitz
38. Stuck in a Moment - U2
39. A Shade of Blue - Incognito
40. Girl - Destiny's Child
41. The One You Love - Glenn Frey
42. You Make Me Sing - Karylle
43. Umagang Kay Ganda - Pops/ Noisy Neighbors
44. I Can't Make You Love Me - George Michael
45. You Oughta Know - Alanis Morisette
46. Sana Naman - Session Road
47. One & Only - Mariah Carey featuring Twista
48. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
49. Invisible War - Julia Fordham
50. Breathe No More - Evanescence
51. Sleeps With Butterflies - Tori Amos
52. It's Like That - Mariah Carey featuring Jermaine Dupri/ Fatman Scoop
* So I really dug her Emancipation album.. :9
53. Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
54. Always On My Mind - Elvis Presley/ Fantasia Barrino

54 (55 if you count that 1 re-post) songs out of 99 entries.. not too bad but it makes for a rather dreary and uneventful life, right? I still feel as if my life is spiraling down. Maybe I haven't really recovered from the blows that have come my way in the past few months. Kung hindi nyo nahahalata kung gaano na ako talaga kalungkot, manhid kayo or magaling talaga ako magdala!!!

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UNDERNEATH THIS SMILE
Hilary Duff
*Yes! Okay! I got my blog title from one of her songs. Happy?!!
Shameful!!! Really!!! Hahaha

What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue between the lines
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me
From every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile

I have walked this earth with broken bones
I've been keeping secrets under all these lights
But when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room

Could you be the one to save me
From every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this
Underneath this
Underneath this smile
What I'm standing on is sinking in

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P.S.
I'm not too keen on my new blogtemp but this will have to do while I find "the ONE" for me.. :9